Dizzy Dreams
by Gail Lang, dedicated to a dear friend
the nights are long
thoughts race through the mind
how can sleep come if we cannot find peace?
you feel the tension from the worry
the hurt and pain are so strong
if you listen closely
you hear the pounding of your heart
you feel the blood pulse through your body
nervousness.... tension
worry.... pain...
these things are so strong
how will you move beyond them?
how will you find sleep?
how will you dream?
silently you sit
staring into darkness
pleading with god for peace
pleading for answers and direction
he watches from overhead
feeling your pain
hearing your prayers
and hoping you will understand
knowing that the trials you endure
will build strength for the future
he sits quietly as he watches
feeling the love of a father for his son
he will watch over you though you cannot feel his presence
silently you sit in the darkness still.... your eyes close but sleep does not come
you listen to your heart beat
you feel your blood running through your veins
then... something strange
what can it be?
in the darkness comes a sound
gentle like the wind
you feel it blowing gently round
you hear it, you feel it but what can it be?
you stare into the darkness
your eyes straining to see that which you feel and hear
nothing
only darkness and emptiness
only pain and sadness still.... it comes
closer, ever closer
yes, there is something there
something approaches in the darkness
a cloud perhaps?
there is a warmth and strangeness in what approaches
the breeze that you feel blows stronger
you must free your mind if you are to see
you must break free of the restraints that hold you
you sit back, your body goes limp
you can see nothing but the distant shape approaching
you can hear nothing but a soft wind whispering in your ears
you can feel nothing but a softness cradling your body
you sit and wait, beginning to feel wonder and curiousity as you watch the shape begins to take form
a form you can recognize
a form that feels your heart with joy
a form that would bring not peace but dreams
an unmistakable smile shows in the darkness
eyes with depth that stare into your soul
it does not make you feel uncomfortable though
you want to reach out but still the smile and eyes are too distant
you cannot see to whom they belong
only a shadowy figure appears in the darkness
but the eyes and smile are unmistakably those of a friend
it approaches..... closer.... closer..
a hand reaches out
but you cannot reach so far you focus on the figure
still the wind whispering in your ears
the whispering takes form of words
~ come with me ..... reach out to me~
the form floats closer in the darkness
you cannot look away
but stare in wonder
trying desperately to reach out
the hand comes closer
the eyes grow stronger
the warmth encircles you
the voice fills your mind
softly you feel the touch of the hand
and reach out to take it just as your hand touches that in the darkness
it slips away again
it's gone!
there is no sound
there is no wind whispering
there are no eyes, no smile
only darkness again
you sit and wonder what happened?
what could have gone wrong?
where is the wind that whispers in your ear?
where has the smile of friendship gone?
where are the eyes that look into the soul?
where is the hand that touched but briefly?
you reach out again into the darkness... hoping.... you must release yourself for it to come again
you must let your mind be free
only in freeing your mind can you dream
only in dreaming can the figure return....
there, in the distance it appears again
the form, the smile, the eyes...
and the hand again reaches out to you
this time as you reach out it takes hold
you feel yourself lifted
and you see the form clearly
there in front of you is a friend known to you as dizzy
a smile stretched from ear to ear
her eyes twinkling mischievously
she holds your hand firmly then turns away time stands still as you begin to soar through space
reality becomes a dream
dream becomes reality
you feel as though you are flying
but where can she be leading you?
you have no choice but to follow and hold tight to the hand of friendship
occasionally being warmed by the smile as she glances back
her eyes still twinkling with mischief
still reaching into your soul
she soars ever upward, holding you tight
carrying you to new heights
showing you the path for dreams
into the stars, into the heavens
you soar and feel the freedom found only in dreams suddenly everything stops
dizzy stands before you clearly now
surrounded by stars and space
you look into the eyes and see the soul
and are warmed by the smile of friendship
she takes both your hands in hers
then the wind blows softly again
you begin to hear the sound of words falling on your ears
you listen.... eager to hear what comes....
~only you can guide your dreams ~
~only you can create the freedom in your mind~
then as strangely as she appeared she is gone
leaving you alone in the stars
free to dream ~~~~~~~~~~ |